Boring

Sorry about the lack of posts during the past month. There really hasn't been anything exciting in my life to report. It's been the same ol' stuff day in and day out. I eat mostly cottage cheese and run as much as I can.

Movement

The scale finally moved in my favor today.... DOWN.

9 pounds to go until goal!

12

12 to go!

Moving Down...

The scale is moving down again. Hip Hip Hooray! I've been doing really good the past few days with my diet and exercise. It's paying off!

13 pounds to go!

Once I reach my initial goal I think I'll reevaluate and maybe shoot for 140, but I'm not going to even think about that right now. 13 sounds better and more doable than 23 at this point. I can't believe how much weight I've lost.

I'm still having a difficult time recognizing myself in the mirror. I don't look like the same person and I still kinda feel fat. I'm starting to wonder how I appear in the eyes of other people. I find myself sizing up other women and wondering if I'm close to their size or not. I just can't grasp all of this yet. Someday....

Coming Clean...

OK... So here's the deal. I guess I better document what I've been cheating with lately so I can learn from my mistakes.

Here it goes...

- light popcorn (totally not on the list of things I'm allowed to eat)

- fruit (maybe I've been enjoying too much? I know it's a healthy sugar, but sugar is still sugar.)

- chocolate (dark chocolate still isn't good for me; why do I love it so much?; the tiny taste I enjoy really does add up)

- Russel Stover SF Marshmallow Easter Egg (these things are amazingly wonderful and are a rare treat, but those treats still have calories that add up over time)

- Twizzlers bites (I've been really enjoying these after a run... but the frozen scale makes me not enjoy them so much now)

On top of all that, I haven't been exercising as much lately. This is a really bad combination. I can't help but wonder if I'm subconsciously trying to sabotage my diet or if I'm scared of reaching goal. Well, whatever it is needs to be corrected immediately.

Have any of you ever experienced something like this?

On A Positive Note...

I only have 15 more to go!!!

Disappointed...

What can I say? I've been cheating a bit and I'm really disappointed. It's time to get back on the bandwagon.

Tomorrow is a new day!